Often when I’m scrolling Facebook, I’ll notice that one of my blogging friends has shared one of their own blog posts. I think this is incredible. For the most part, my blog is a secret. It’s not like i’m living some clandestine life where I don’t want anyone to know that I write, it’s more that I’m just not ready for people to see what I really think about.
The biggest reason for keeping my blog quiet is that people will think I’m lying to them. In real life, I’m quiet, I’m not overly opinionated (apart from with those closest to me) and I don’t really acknowledge the topics that take up so much of my alone time. When I’m alone I love nothing more than picking up some philosophical reading or getting deep into my own head about the future of humanity, but I would never share these thoughts in real-life friends. So, I think I’m worried that if people find my blog, they’ll wonder why I don’t bring these things up in conversation, why I’m always so quiet. The truth is, I just prefer to write it out. But I ‘m worried friends will think I’m a different person in
A second reason isn’t so much that I don’t want people to read my blog, but that I don’t want them to even know I write one. Blogging comes with a certain kind of stigma. Responses vary from “So you just write about yourself?” to “Everyone’s a blogger these days.” I mean, yeah, I do pretty much just write about myself but better here than sharing every aspect of my life in lengthy Facebook statuses so that people can reply with the crying face emoji, right?
Finally, I just don’t want past-life people reading about my current life. This probably sounds hypocritical considering that I’m putting all of my life on the internet with the purpose of others reading it so I shouldn’t really be too choosy in who I want to allow to see it. But if I care enough about you then I’d tell you that I write a blog. I’d be unlikely to reveal the URL but if you find it then kudos to you. So when I see people I knew from school watching every one of my Insta stories but never actually following my profile, I can’t help but feel a bit weird. There’s likely a reason we don’t talk anymore so why does my blog even interest you?
I hope that one day I’ll be the one clicking share to Facebook, but for now I’m content in my own blogging bubble.